Monday, October 23, 2006

50 Years, 23 Days...but not counting

As I'm now of that age I believe my mind is now going. Along with the slackening the face and body my mind seems to have be permanently fogged. Can the mind sag? Hmmm. I left for grocery shopping this morning, telling my husband I'd be back shortly, without my list, I thought momentarily about going back for it but since it only contained two or three items I decided it would be silly to go back. I only needed milk, dog cookies and fruit. On my way to the grocery store I noticed gas had gone down two more cents so I stopped to put twenty bucks worth in. Next to the gas station was a linen store. I had been thinking recently about either getting a new bed or getting some sort of soft topper. In our bed lately it seemed like I could feel every coil and my sleep just had been deteriorating. I'm sure it all had to do with my mental attitude about turning 50 and that there's probably nothing wrong with our bed, just my imaginary aches and pains but I went into the store anyway. Forty-five minutes later I came out of the linen store with a $200 down and feather bed topper. For my old aching body and for my husbands sake. Yeah. I got back on the road but was distracted again by a veterinarian's office because I remembered that I had forgotten to renew one of the dog's medicines so I pulled into the nearest parking lot and made a call to our vet to get them to renew the prescription and then headed over to pick it up. There was the usual long wait once I got there, so much for calling ahead, and after another half an hour I was back on the road again.

By this time I was way across town from the grocer that I had started out going to so I headed for the nearest mega-mall that I knew had a grocery in it. My cell phone rang at this point and it was my husband asking me where I was. I replied that I was grocery shopping or very near to it and he pointed out that I'd already been gone for nearly two hours. Not to worry I said, I just pop into the store, pick up what I need and be home shortly. Mega-mall, wonderful term, tons of stores, tons of sales, tons of distractions. For some reason I'm not sure of I bought myself a red evening gown. Floor length, one shouldered with silvered beads sewn on. I have nowhere to wear it but it was on sale. I guess I can wear it picking up dog poop in the yard, maybe with the designer jacket my sister talked me into a few months ago which was also on sale. Anyway, it was nearly an hour later that I entered the grocery store. I got a great price on some steaks, a bargain on a case of pop, a giant tub of margarine and a shopping cart full of various and other sundry items. Of course I'm sure you've guessed already I did not get milk, dog cookies or fruit. I did spend four hours away from home and approximately $350, I think. I'm not really sure because I've already lost most of the receipts and I don't have time to look right now cos I have to run out to the nearest convenience store to get milk for tomorrow mornings coffee (ah, maybe I can wear that red evening gown). Oh, and dog cookies and fruit if they have it. Can the mind sag? I dunno but I'm sure tired today from trying to hold it up.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Well 50 Did Happen

and you know what? It was just as awful as I thought it would be. In anticipation of the big event I've lost 70 pounds, because I'm not going to be FAT AND 50, and that in turn has actually lowered my sugar levels to the point that I no longer take medication for my Type 2 Diabetes. So thats actually good. But...with the weight off of my face my cheeks seem to have become covered in tiny wrinkles. As a matter of fact, just before my birthday I was asked in a store if I was eligable for the senior's discount. I was afraid to ask if they thought I was 55 or 65. So now I'm slimmer but with a wrinkled face which also seems to have sagged. Along with everything else. Apparently the only thing ever keeping everything in place was my fat. So I've made an appointment with a dermatologist to try out their "photo rejuvenation" laser thingy. It costs a lot of money but is cheaper than a face lift. I can only afford the face itself and not my neck so if it works well on my face I'll just go with wearing turtlenecks until I can save up enough to get my neck done.

Also, for my birthday which I have been desperately trying to avoid, my father decided to pay me a three day visit. Now I love my father and I'm glad that at 80 he's in good enough health to make the trip across the country from Ontario to British Columbia, but one of the reasons I live in BC is because I love my father and I can't move any farther west without actually leaving the country. We have a great long distance relationship. He has always known how to push all of my buttons and hold them so its better for both of us that there are a few Provinces between us. He seems to forget that most times we tend to disagree and told me that he'd be spending very little time at the hotel, just nights, so that he could spend alllll dayyy long with me. The three days lasted a year it seemed but we did get through it. I really do love him and gave him a big kiss goodbye.

So this is 50 huh. I feel like I look it but I really still feel 49. I know, I know, its only a number but I just don't understand why this happened to me?!!