Sunday, January 27, 2008

Are you happy Oprah, dammit, I've finally quit smoking

signed your pledge and boy am I bitchy. Well not really, well yes really. When I was frustrated tonight about getting our home computers to go wireless I did quite a bit of stomping and then ate a bag of bridge mixture chocolate candies (I don't even like chocolate) and half a bag of diet (Ha) cheesies. That was after a dinner of spiral french fries, no protein there at all. I did throw in a couple of grapes.

Its been 5 days 9 hrs 19 minutes and 26 seconds at this point that I've been smoke free. A handy dandy little gadget on my computer (which is still NOT wireless) tells me this constantly counting out the time and telling me how much of my life I've gained. Crap, how much have I lost in yelling at the computer, the hubby, the dogs, the car, the car in front of me, etc etc etc.

It doesn't seem to be any easier day by day. It seems harder and my "reptile brain" as Dr Oz calls it is constantly giving me more and more excuses, reasons, why I should just have one, or a puff, or a sniff, couldn't hurt. NO NO NO. They want to make me go back smoking I say NO NO NO

I'm weak, how long can I last...

2 comments:

Mahala said...

Quitting smoking sucks. You feel like crap, your head tells you it's bad but everything else in your being tells you that's bs and a cigarette would make it all better.

I feel your pain.

dilling said...

yeah...I still count...Let's see... Eight years, three months(with a couple of leap years thrown in), four days and ten hours 48 minutes....